Well,
My former students and I, we crossed path with each other quite unexpectedly.
At least for them cos I kinda knew I was coming but to be fair I didn't know that they were going to be my students.
That four incredible months! Yes! I can finally call the experience incredible* now that it's over.
They say you don't know what you have until it's over. That sort of applies to me in this whole practicum journey.
I shall start of with the most horrible ones but I reckon I shall not because I promise you I am not goin to be able to stop.
Of course, in life I will encounter a few bumps on the road.
There are memories that I am not very fond of and there are memories or occurances that I will keep with me untill the day I die.
Let's just leave it at that. No need to explain more.
All are, if I'm being honest, unexpected ones. But in a good way.
Some I just don't want to remember. The physical and mental torture I am just going to leave them all behind me.
Worst of all was being judge all the freaking time by everyone.
Having this feeling where (speaking metaphorically) trying to look as fine as possible before walking out the door cos worried of what people would think not cos you wanna look good for your own sake. Well I just don't want to remember bout that.
In fact, the things that I gain in the end, literally I say, on the very last week, last day, and last moment with them overshadowed all the torture I have been through.
I have to say, teaching in Seafield is one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life.
I am just sad, but not regretful, just sad because it all came a little bit too late.
Which brings me back to the saying you don't realize what you have till it's gone. (I rephrased it in another way here, but who cares, still has the same meaning)
Us human, we always want the things we don't have and we end up overlooking the things we have in front of us.
So, here I am, amazed and intrigued on how time moves in silence. Leaving us all behind.
Sometimes, I wonder if I just stay silent for a tiny moment, perhaps I could hear time moving in the moment, in the motion.
And by that I could capture time and keep it for later days. For when I'm missing. But it's all just inside my head.
My thoughts, dreams.
In reality, all I have is the after time, the time in which soon will be a forgotten past. Me, a forgotten figure.
Rewind. Turning back. Those are all dreams. The lingering things inside my head.
Funny. In that whole four months, I only thought of turning back one particular day. And its not ever in the period of the four months.
It was after that.
I am not taking back what I said about not wanting to change anything if I could nor to the fact that I don't appreciate all the times I had with them in class cos I do.
But, suppose so, if someone ask me per say...I wanna rewind only THAT day.
That last moment that made me realize everything.
How I realized I changed thoughts and minds and most importantly how they changed my thoughts and minds. Forever!
Well, I sorta realized all of that during the last day also but THAT day only made it so beautiful and hard to let go.
So, again, my last moments with them. Not much pictures captured cos I was overwhelmed with emotions.
I'm a very emotional person if you don't know me already.
You should see for yourself the amount of crying and tears I shed during the whole process.
Nevermind that.
Some pictures taken using my humble phone.
Just to make this post a tiny tad interesting I hope. Because words are sometimes boring.
It was Hari Sukan. And other pics thats related!
Next are from Cross Country, more like after cross country
And these few are from a corner of the school that I really like. Not the most secluded place but I dunno why it appeals to me.
More to come I guess....
P/S gonna miss the school...
And missing my students already...
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