Black and white

i wanna be photographed in black and white
so take a picture of me in black and white
because things just look so

                                                simple...

A cover by me...

tumblr

moved to tumblr for a while...

Superman

Mah cousin brother Jonathan…just thought its a cool picture…… but he needs broader shoulders and bigger arms to be superman…..

saya kisah akan dunia yang tidak kisah

jika saya tidak kisah lagi akan dunia…maka hilangla segala perassan rapuh dalam diri ini…maka bebaslah….tapi adakah itu yang saya mahu….bebas tp hilang segala-galanya? bersama emosi….ketenangan tidak pernah akan tiba selagi saya kisah akan dunia yg tidak kisah…

There is too much sadness in this world

I am sorry but I have never meant to rant
Forgive me I have never wanted to say too much
Pardon me I sometime don't have a point too when I rant
I rant a lot in Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, and mostly here
But I have something that I feel I need to share to the world
It doesn't matter to me if the world or anyone for that matter is not listening/reading
Today, I woke up quite early despite having a terrible fever the night before
I also had trouble sleeping, I slept at about 4 am
Well I always sleep around that time but considering I was sick I tried to sleep as early as I can
So I had my breakfast and popped some pills and I had this sinking feeling
I happened when I was watching TV after my breakfast
I was never really paying attention to the TV
I just don't like still atmosphere
I turned it on just for the sound
So my mind wandered to somewhere else and I realized

There is so much sadness in this world
That we as people never seemed to ponder about in our daily lives

There are so many types of sadness
And what I am thinking now is the saddest type
I think about my mother, my brothers, my sister, my father, and it makes me sad.
Don't ask me why.
I see an old woman walking on the street barely able to walk and it makes me sad.
Old people make me sad. It makes me wonder of how many years left that they have in this world.
That is why I wish to die young.
I see my grandma and I am sad. I think about grandpa I cry everytime.
I see my mum and dad working so hard it makes me sad.
See, there is just too much sadness in this world.
I know they say think positive, look on the bright side. Those are all bullshits. Pardon the language.

So why do I feel this way? I don't know and don't ask me.
Maybe I am just not happy at this point of my life now
But even if I am happy, I don't think that we should deny that there is so much sadness in this world
So many people are suffering, so many people are not happy
Today, I realized that. Out of the blue.
But you might have already figured that out anyway.
The fact that there is too much sadness in this world.

I think we should start caring, and say the words we should say and mean them.
Before it is too late. Because all we have now, wealth, money, people we love, all of that, will be gone from our lives one day.
Until later...goodbye for now.

P/s why is my whole family so curious when I want to go out? They keep asking questions. Well maybe because I rarely go out but still no need for the interrogation. Or maybe they think I'm going out with a guy? I'll just let them think that, it's more fun. Bye peeps.

All I need is some bitterness...Great!

yeah i can be poetic when i want to… 

i can write a poem and i can be really good at it…

to penn down my emotions…

how hard can it be…

its the simplest thing ever…

i just need to be honest with everything that’s inside of me 

and then let it all out…

cos id only write about whats inside of me…

and about what people make me feel…

so yeah….i could be a poet….

and a great one too…

as long as i stay true to my feelings inside….

the hard thing is that these feelings inside are true….

so if there are bitter ones…

it might be as bitter to create beautiful lines 

in a piece of paper

and write about it…..

thats one thing that keeps me from writing most of the time

it hurts thinking bout it inside

then i dont dare putting salt into the wound 

by letting it all out all over again….

but one of the things i fear the most in the world 

is losing my ability to write

scribbling meaningful lines about my life….

i dont want to lose that…

so heart….i beg you to be strong….

to set aside all the bitterness

and i can write with all of my heart…

peace out!